For the first time on several days I have felt able to do a short standing qigong set. My posture probably lacked something, and my breathing (with a flu induced cough on top of asthma ) wasn't picture perfect either. But I did it. I can't say I could feel the energy flowing. I can't say it was a really peaceful mindful experience.....but I did it.
And just doing it was a huge win....and psychologically thats a massive boost that will impact on body mind and spirit in a positive way.
I finally feel I may be on the road back to normality